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Ya.Aku setuju.

aku memang EGO.setinggi-tinggi gunung.serendah-rendah bukit.

aku memang KERAS HATI.sekeras-keras batu.besi.dinding.

aku memang CEMBURU BUTA.sebuta-buta manusia.

aku memang GELABAH.segelabah-gelabah ayam.

tapiii.

kau taknak tahu ke reasonnya nape?

semuanya sebab kau.
sejarah mengajar aku semua ni.
kecewa sebabkan aku berjaga-jaga.
sedih buatkan aku serik.
marah dan geram jadikan aku speechless and heartless.
dan semuanya bercampur aduk menjadi satu.

kau patut tahu,
tak semua perempuan berani dan sanggup judikan diri mereka buat kali kedua.
hanya yang betul tuli buta hati perasaan aje yang bisa.

dan aku salah seorang daripadanya.

mohon kau jelas dan mengerti,
perangai aku bertukar pun bukan saja-saja suka.

cuma,
aku perlukan KESABARAN kau.

sabar untuk tunggu aku jadi 'neutral' seperti sediakala.

insyaallah.ianya takkan lama.

Pasrah(?)

Betul lah orang kate life is karma.What you give,u will get back.Aku tahu aku salah.and almost 5 6 orang dah pernah warning aku the same thing.Even my parents themselves pun pernah sound aku.

'ko rapat la sgt weh.kang merasa ko karang laki ko wat jugak'

'alah,mmg la kawan tapi kalo kena kat batang hidung ko,naye'

'awok tahu dok kakak,blh consider curang dh ni,kalo S buat,jgn mrh lok ye'

Aku masa tu langsung tak terfikir tentang pro n cons nya.Ape yg aku tahu,apa salahnya bestfriend je pun.Nothing more,nothing less.Bukan pernah keluar berdua gi dating or ape.If jumpa, mesti ade family kitorang juga.Aku langsung have no ideas why it can be considered as curang?

and now,

baru aku dapat rasa kan,

it's quite impossible for a 'girl' and 'boy' to be a bestfriend. yes,it's true.

if ada yang berjaya pun,confirm akan ada juga small argue between partner.and of course it's about jealousy.

in my case,aku blh katekan benda dah makan diri.Aku tak kate bestfriend aku salah pun.He did nothing wrong pun yet always being a good listener for me.But,my presence slowly buatkan ada insan yang kecewa and terasa hati.yes.her GF :(.but i tried my best to welcome her and be friend instead of musuh.

but bila the same thing happened at my side, which is my Bf pun ada BFF perempuan jugak and i tried to accept her but i failed to do so.I just can simply accept her like 'oh bff S ea.hi nice to meet u blabla' .tak bolehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. :'(

I thought it will be as simple as ABC.oh nom2.it turned out to be like sakit hati,geram,jeles, tapi still curious nak tahu how is she?mcmane blh jd bff?baik tak dia?dia hipokrit tak?boleh masuk kepale tak?ada chemistry tak?

but yg paling menyedihkan sekarang,nape that girl mcm tak suke saye je. :'(

or sememangnya,

sy hanya cemburu buta?

LIFE so far..

Salam and nice day ahead.Been too lazy to spill out the words.Life being so good and lots of thingsss happened to me.name it good or bad.Dua-dua ada.Just be thankful.Everything happens for a reason kan. 

Pejam celik pejam celik, I had gone through a lot things for this year and now i'm on my way to finish my sem 4 life in IPG.Sekejap gila je rasa.And the saddest thing was I saw severals friend of mine when I was in STF were celebrating their G-Day.Deep inside my heart, i felt something that i also can describe.yes.indescribable!Syapikah.this is your path.HE knows the best for you.Nothing need to be regretted.Tersimpan sejuta hikmah why HE puts you here.No need to be jealous what they got.Just appreciate what you have.

Tapi itulah.I can't cheat myself to be jealous.Selalu terfikir,kenapa aku tak join dorang ye.If tak,aku dah dapat grad awal.Nape SPM dulu aku tak struggle gila-gila eh.Mesti dapat ikut dorang sambung MEDIC and so on.But u must admit.Why must you bother other people.Different people,different destiny.Terima jela seaadanya.Ikhlas kan hati.

Bila aku sharing-sharing dgn bestfren,telling them about how was a big mistake i did  when i decided to enter matrik sedangkan aku tahu hati aku takda langsung dengan Science's subject.But their answers really make me wonder and sometimes makes me thinking a lot.Yup.Betul jugak jawapan dorang.

Maybe ada hikmah.Kalau tak,takda la aku jumpa MR13 kan.So,setulusnya aku keep on praying semoga itulah hikmah yang betul2 tuhan nak tunjuk which was meeting my mr future and moge2 he will be my future husband too.insyaallah.sebab sememangnya personally i gained nothing there.Aku langsung lost.Tak tahu apa yang aku belajar.and Syukur alhamdulillah, i got an offer from IPG.which was i think my passion.Hope berkekalan la yep :P

Anyway, cakap pasal life aku sem 4 ni.So far alhamdulillah.I started slowly apa yang aku idam2 and angan2kan selama ni which is wanna have a small business yang dapat support financial aku serba sedikit.Tak banyak pun takpa.Asalkan ada sikit as i love to travel and shop here and there.So,memang lah botak if nak harapkan betul2 dari elaun maktab je semata-mata.Alhamdulillah diatas rezeki yang tuhan kurniakan and alhamdulillah juga masih diberikan peluang untuk berkongsi rezeki tuhan dengan insan2 tersayang.Semoga pintu rezeki ku dibukakan lagi untuk peluang yang seterusnya.amin.

insyaallah.

Asian Islamic Food's Festival

The day we went to Kelantan tu kan,we also stopped by kat this foods festival ni which was held at Stadium Kelantan if tak silap. The foodssss were veryyy the banyak one and pelik-pelik. Kami sampai tak tau nak makan apa.Anyway,pirah sempat snap pics.Aku just tukang rembat aje. XD

Steamboat at home :D

My mum tiba2 came out with idea nak bersteamboat di rumah.HAHA.best ape.melantak beramai2 tanpa perlu mengeluarkan sedikit peluh pun.oh,itu tipu.Start magrib mak aku dah kerah aku masak tomyam putih.Masak punya masak,dalam pukul 9 lebih camtu,the foodsss are readyyy to be telannn.

layankan jela pics..

Bold??

I found this when i read mym's blog.HAHA.suddenly terasa cam berminat lak nak try kan.:) 


*bold what applies to you!

•     I am a male.
•     I am a girl.
•     I am shorter than 5’4.
•     I think I’m ugly.
•     I have many scars.*orang tumpahan minyak la katakan.sob3 :(
•     I tan easily.
•     I wish my hair was a different color.
•     I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
•     I have a tattoo.
•     I am self-conscious about my appearance.
•     I’ve had braces.
•     I wear glasses (or contact lenses).
•     I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
•     I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
•     I have more than 2 piercings.
•     I have piercing in places besides my ears.
•     I have freckles.
•     I’ve sworn at my parents.
•     I’ve run away from home.
•     I’ve been kicked out of the house.
•     I have a sibling less than one year old.
•     I want to have kids someday.
•     I’m in school.
•     I’ve lost a child.
•     I have a job.*goyang2 kaki
•     I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.*wajib weh!
•     I almost always do/did my homework.
•     I’ve missed a week or more of school.
•     I failed more than 1 class last year.
•     I’ve stolen something from my job.
•     I’ve slipped out an “lol” in a spoken conversation.
•     Disney movies still make me cry.
•     I’ve peed from laughing.
•     I’ve snorted while laughing.
•     I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
•     I’ve glued my hand to something.
•     I’ve had my pants rip in public.
•     I was born with a disease/impairment.
•     I’ve broken a bone.
•     I’ve gotten stitches/staples.
•     I’ve had my tonsils removed.
•     I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
•     I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
•     I had a serious surgery.
•     I’ve had chicken pox.
•     I’ve had measles.
•     I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
•     I’ve been on a plane.
•     I’ve been to Canada.*ok aku tipu
•     I’ve been to Mexico.* tipu juga
•     I’ve been to Niagara Falls. * lagi tipu
•     I’ve been to Japan. * sumpah tipu
•     I’ve celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. * nawok
•     I’ve been to Europe. * tipu tipu tipu
•     I’ve been to Africa. * dalam mimpi
•     I’ve gotten lost in my city.
•     I’ve seen a shooting star.
•     I’ve wished on a shooting star.
•     I’ve seen a meteor shower.
•     I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
•     I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. * hak alah.semua org pernah buat yg ni!
•     I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
•     I’ve been to a casino.
•     I’ve been skydiving.
•     I’ve gone skinny dipping.
•     I’ve played spin the bottle.                                            
•     I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
•     I’ve crashed a car.
•     I’ve been skiing.
•     I’ve been in a play.
•     I’ve met someone in person from Facebook.
•     I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
•     I’ve seen the Northern lights.
•     I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
•     I’ve played chicken.
•     I’ve played a prank on someone.
•     I’ve ridden in a taxi.
•     I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
•     I’ve eaten sushi.
•     I’ve been snowboarding. * angan2 xksampaian
•     I’m single. kehkehkeh
•     I’m in a relationship. kihkihkih
•     I’m engaged. kahkahkah
•     I’m married. hikhikhik
•     I’ve gone on a blind date.
•     I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper.
•     I miss someone right now.
•     I have a fear of abandonment.
•     I’ve gotten divorced.
•     I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
•     I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
•     I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
•     I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
•     I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
•     I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
•     I am a cuddler.
•     I’ve been kissed in the rain.
•     I’ve hugged a stranger.
•     I have kissed a stranger.
•     I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
•     I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
•     I’ve sneaked out of my house.
•     I am keeping a secret from the world.
•     I’ve cheated while playing a game.
•     I’ve cheated on a test.* kat stf dulu slalu buat nih.hakhak
•     I’ve run a red light.
•     I’ve been suspended from school.
•     I’ve witnessed a crime.
•     I’ve been in a fist fight.
•     I’ve been arrested.
•     I’ve passed out from drinking.
•     I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
•     I’ve smoked. * tolonglah percaya.aku tahu lah muka aku innocent kan.kah3.gurau je bro!
•     I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
•     I’ve eaten mushrooms.
•     I’ve popped E.
•     I’ve inhaled Nitrous.
•     I’ve done hard drugs.
•     I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
•     I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
•     I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
•     I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
•     I shut others out when I’m depressed.
•     I take anti-depressants.
•     I have been anorexic or bulimic.
•     I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
•     I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
•     I’ve woken up crying.
•     I’m afraid of dying.
•     I hate funerals.
•     I’ve seen someone dying.
•     Someone close to me has committed suicide.
•     I’ve planned my own suicide.
•     I’ve attempted suicide.
•     I’ve written a eulogy for myself.
•     I own over 5 rap CDs.
•     I own an iPod or MP3 player.
•     I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
•     I own something from Hot Topic.
•     I own something from Pac Sun.
•     I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
•     I collect comic books.

banyak gilo bak anggg.

trust

kau boleh percaya diri kau sendiri je 100%..


selebihnyaaaa,


jangan lah..

baik jangan..

nape?

sebab..


orang lain pun takkan cayakan kita 100%.

so.adil la tu kan.
muahaha.







*menyumbat dah tak taw nak buat apa agaknya.hukhuk

....

bila aku,

sedih marah frust serabut tensyen sakit hati makan dalam bengang risau bimbang makan hati



nangis sampai selok,
tidur sampai pengsan,


jee yg boleh buat aku tenang balik.

if tak,kalau la aku continue buat something else sambil hati membengkak camtu,
confirm ada manusia yang makan sakit.

seriously,
i just need a time je..
then, i'll back into a normal me..
boleh bergelak ketawa loyar buruk mcm biasa..


but,
recently hati sangat sensitive.
nape ntah.


takpe.
TIME WILL HEAL.
dont worry..


if we want people around us treat us like a queen,do treat them as a king/queen too.
Karma do exist.what goes around,comes around.
*peringatan utk diri-sendiri.

Seafood with member2

seriously unplan pun nak jumpa ramai-ramai.semuanya last2 minit je bila sepet tiba-tiba came out with idea nak lepak ramai2 malam tu.

at first sedih gak bila tak dapat pujuk mat bawak nabila sekali.huhu.dahla lama gila tak jumpa makcik tuh.haha.rupa2 dua ekor sengaja nak buat suprise.ambik ko.kan kami dah melantak dulu.nway,thanks mat sbb sanggup drift gi upsi dr shah alam semata2 nak bawak makcik tu turun.hehehe.appreciate weh!

papehal.that was a best moment since everyone were enjoying themselves.melantak macam tak hingat.gelak pun macam nak terbelah dunia sorang2.thanks everyone.

to mr sepet.thanks for ur treat.i was enjoying myself to the fullest.sejuk hati dapat tengok member sume happy2.foods were soooo sedap sampai licin kena lahap.with environment pun yg quite exclusive je nmpk.recommended ye kwn2.sila la pergi lg.view pn cantik.betul-betul sebelah tasik shah alam.namanya masing2 dah lupa.haha.nway terima kasih ye.

looking forward to have a small reunion cam tu lg.best sgt.BBQ pun dah kira ok.sbb kalau nk plan trip mana2  cam susah sikit since everyone got diff schedule.aku cuti kau tak cuti,kau cuti aku plak tak cuti.even me and si sepet pn susah.life u and maktab.totally diff.sabar je la ye.

and,papehal.layan pic jela.camera masing2 tak bawak.so hp jela ada.tu pun.sume blurrr.hukhuk.sokey.dari takda langsung kan.at least sempat la snap sikit2.

*maap.aku memang malas nak susun pic elok2.

Move on.

forget the past.
let us start a new one.


with a new chapter :)

pengalaman mengajar kita.
baik buruk,renungkan bersama.


insya'allah,tuhan permudahkan segalanya.


yang penting,SABAR itu kuncinya.


love u so much.

Rindu si sepet..

"when love is observed,love is preserved"

Insyaallah.

Setahun setengah tak lama mana. :)

Good luck AKAR

GOOD LUCK korang.

all the best.

xmenang takpe.asal kite enjoyyyyyyyyy

I LOVE THEM

You lie to your parents for your lover,but why not to your lover for your parents?

To marry your lover you leave your parents,but why dont you leave your lover for your parents?

You ask your lover whether he/she has taken lunch on time...but have u ever asked the same question to your parents?

U leave all your bad habits for 1 promise to your lover,but why not after the repeated advice of your dad? 

~credit to pravina fb's status.

I'm sorry ma n abah.love you so much!thanks for everything.

I should be proud for having them as the greatest parents in the world.

Happy birthday mr future

How do you expect me to remember your birthday, when you never look any older bro?
~keh3.ayat bodek der.ehem2.famous amos harap jangan dilupakan yeeeer.HAHA


by the way,HAPPY BIRTHDAY my love!Sedar tak sedar umur dah makin meningkat dah,walaupun mata tak berapa nak bukak.haha.Semoga hidup yang mendatang lagi bermakna dan ceria-ceria selalu.


Wishing u all the best for your life.It is not being in love that makes me happy but it is being in love with YOU that makes me happy.love u more and more sepet.


Semoga jodoh kita bersama kuat dan kekal selamanya serta dipermudahkan segala urusan olehNya.amin.


Thanks for being with me,love.

Ramadhan 2011

this time around,puasa tak memenatkan sangat.Kadang-kadang tak sedar pun masa berlalu,alih-alih time buka dah dekat.Lagi setengah jam baru nak hegeh-hegeh tanak nasi.Last2 makan nasi lauk kicap and budu semata-mata.best gillos!

overall, iftar tahun ni memang tak semewah tahun-tahun yang lepas.Dont know why.Maybe kekangan duit kot,and to be suprised duit pun banyak gila jimat sem ni.Yela tahun sebelum ni,tak sah kalau berbuka,sejuta juadah kat depan. Macam-macam jenis.Semua benda aku nak telan.Kalau gi bazar,confirm rambang mata.sumpah tak tipu.

Bila semua benda nak telan,confirm perut cam nak pecah.then mulalah aku terawih atas katil.teruk tak teruk.Cakap pasal terawih, memang setiap tahun aku tak penuh. Niat nak penuhkan tu selalu ada setiap tahun. tp tu lah.hmm.sedih dengan diri sendiri.Terlalu senang untuk tewas.Lain lah kalau puasa kat rumah,nak tak nak memang kena pergi bila parents ada depan mata.Biasala aku,Awal-awal kena la suruh sikit, lama kelamaan ikhlas tu insyaallah akan datang sendiri.

Betul lah orang kata,raya ni biasanya budak-budak kecik je yang untung.Makin ko besar,makin kurang rasa bahang nak raya tu. I mean semangat ko nak sambut tu takda la macam kecik-kecik dulu.Untunglaaa kn.Tapi papahal, penghayatan raya tu yang penting sebenarnya.Bagi aku celebrate ke tak,ok je,cume yang penting kena bersama family yang penuh,Sebab yang tu lah raya yang meaningful which is semua muka2 yang susah nak jumpa dalam masa setahun,akan gather ramai-ramai bile raya.superbb best!

Lagi tak best,bila tradisi kad raya yang makin dilupakan.Sangat tak cool.Rugi gila adik-adik aku tak sempat rasa zaman tu.Yang dorang tahu,semua bantai wish via sms je. tak best.tak best.

Papahal,memandangkan sok aku dah start cuti then balik raya bersama family,nak buat salam peratauan la sikit.keh3.

btw,

SALAM RAMADHAN UNTUK SEMUA.DAN SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.HATI-HATI BALIK RAYA.JANGAN MAIN MERCUN.MAKAN SIKIT-SIKIT SUDAH.YANG PENTING,DUIT RAYA JANGAAAAN LUPA;:)

*pics taken from google.